Fat, Fat, Fat.

I've been thinking a lot lately about being overweight, and not just because I was just in my sisters' wedding where every other woman didn't weigh more than 125 lbs(including michelle who was like 7 months pregnant)and not just because all of the women in my new ward are gorgeous and run marathons 2 weeks after having babies, and not just because of this extra 20 pounds i'm carrying around. Note- it's definitely more than 20 but 20 sounds so trivial, like i could drop it at anytime if i wanted to. Case in point, jonathan lost 31 lb.s last month doing this 5 bite diet. i did the same diet and lost 4 but you know, life's not fair blah, blah, blah.
anyway, i've been thinking about it because of this ridiculous, awful, disgusting television show "More To Love". It's gross, and I hate the bachelor and I watch it every week. It's like the car accident, I'm uncomfortable the whole time, squeamish and sometimes even really sad, but I can't pull my eyes away from it.
In case you are unfamiliar with the show, as many people are,it is the Fat version of "The Bachelor". They have this nasty overweight sleazy cheesy chubby chaser guy and 20 morbidly obese women, then like 5 that are just fat. Side note- only fat people can say stuff like this so if you're skinny, don't try it cause people will hate you. onwards. I get that the producers decided that instead of having a bunch of beautiful skinny yatches on the show, they would make one with fat girls. fine. but A. do all the women really have to have zero self-esteem, zero social skills and have never kissed a guy, let alone had a boyfriend? and B. does the bachelor really have to be a nasty pervert to be a guy who would overlook a woman's size? ugh.
It really bothers me when people think that the opposite of judging people for being overweight is embracing obesity. I cringe every time one of these girls goes into a monologue about how they are "proud of every curve and every pound". Liar! you would have the lapband tommorrow if you could. Or how amazing Luke is for loving them for who they really are. No no no. do you also love heart disease and dying young? do you love being tired and unhealthy? No, everyone is not meant to be a size 2 but no one is meant to be a size 20. no one. you should at least be attempting to be healthy. aaaaand, the funny thing is that being overweight is the least of these women's problems. it's like this cop out, " people don't like me because of my weight" they actually think that there is nothing else wrong with them. they would never think to take a look at other things they could improve on because they are just sure that 100lb. is the only thing standing between them and their prince charming.
I realize that i am ranting but i find it hard to believe that the producers couldn't have found women who were "bigger" or chubby or whatever size, that were also socially adjusted and confident. not in a "don't i look good?" way, which is masking insecurities anyway. but women who actually have some self worth, despite not looking the way they would like to. i mean, most women are insecure about their bodies, whether they are a size 5 or 25. most women, with the exception of kristen kearl,(my freshman year roommate who would stare at herself in the mirror everyday and say things like " it really isn't fair, i mean, i don't even work out, but look at my stomach, i mean who do you know that has a better stomach than this?") don't love every inch of their bodies. But i suppose the show would not be a success that way because women with any kind of self esteem would realize that this "great catch" that is overlooking their weight, is actually a complete loser and that needs way more than his man-boobs overlooked.
Watch it.